Friday, December 16, 2011
Monday, December 12, 2011
dinner with coworkers from Apple
We did it. with no expectations or other worries, we had a tremendously fun night out with three couples from my work. it was the most laid back no trying to impress anybody, start talking about anything from whatever point because you surely won't repeat yourself. everybody was interesting and self-sufficient enough, with great people skills, and similar interests... take conrad for example. he has a lot of passion and knowledge in some particular areas, that unless you share the same passion, it's rather hard to carry a conversation and have fun doing it. well, we found a few nerds that are way too similar to conrad in that respect.
but enough with facts. lets talk fun.
seeing conrad around the same table with my coworkers, and be relaxed and funny and himself, made me fall in love with him all over again. we didn't sit next to our spouses, so i could observe from afar. wow. conrad is pretty hot and funny and interesting.
i always drag him into bible studies and other church events where he is not quite himself. he feels awkward and acts awkward. indeed people at church can be very intense, and have certain expectations, and ...i don't know what it is, but i am more myself around people at work that sometimes around family and church. and its not like i talk or act differently, its how i feel. but i can always make an effort and relax the atmosphere wherever i am. unless i am particularly overwhelmed myself and really can't enjoy the context.
anyway, conrad is so freakin' cool and hot. and it was such a great discovery especially since lately i felt like work and my relationships there compete with how i feel about conrad.
i like my coworkers. some of them i like a lot. but i like them as people. i wouldn't want to date any of them. there are too weird for me, even if i were single, i wouldn't date them. can't get into that lifestyle no matter hoe much i would try it.
how fun! what a breath of fresh air to hang out with my colleagues and enjoy it so much.
in three days we'll go out with conrad's colleagues, over night at cavallo point... and they are fun as well. hmmmm. our social life in not questionable anymore. there was a time when we felt so isolated and spent way too much time with family.
but enough with facts. lets talk fun.
seeing conrad around the same table with my coworkers, and be relaxed and funny and himself, made me fall in love with him all over again. we didn't sit next to our spouses, so i could observe from afar. wow. conrad is pretty hot and funny and interesting.
i always drag him into bible studies and other church events where he is not quite himself. he feels awkward and acts awkward. indeed people at church can be very intense, and have certain expectations, and ...i don't know what it is, but i am more myself around people at work that sometimes around family and church. and its not like i talk or act differently, its how i feel. but i can always make an effort and relax the atmosphere wherever i am. unless i am particularly overwhelmed myself and really can't enjoy the context.
anyway, conrad is so freakin' cool and hot. and it was such a great discovery especially since lately i felt like work and my relationships there compete with how i feel about conrad.
i like my coworkers. some of them i like a lot. but i like them as people. i wouldn't want to date any of them. there are too weird for me, even if i were single, i wouldn't date them. can't get into that lifestyle no matter hoe much i would try it.
how fun! what a breath of fresh air to hang out with my colleagues and enjoy it so much.
in three days we'll go out with conrad's colleagues, over night at cavallo point... and they are fun as well. hmmmm. our social life in not questionable anymore. there was a time when we felt so isolated and spent way too much time with family.
Friday, December 9, 2011
a good day off
I saw Alex today. I am proud and honored to be Alex's friend and to hang out with her.
It has been a full day with lots of errands to run and I even got to say hi to Rob, my former manager...
We talked about life... and with Alex, because she is soft spoken and such a great listener, I always wonder if i talk too much. we talked about good stuff and about heavy stuff... and sometimes that is plain health... to ear our own reflexions on life and not run away screaming. i stopped trying to fix troubles and worry about them. i love listening to my friend and laugh about random silly things. oh, how great it is to have girlfriends!
i went shopping and i didn't die. there is hope for me. i got conrad a gift... a good one. and i got stuff for Luca. 3T... i have been looking for so long for boys clothes.
laundry, cleaning the house, picked up my glasses, food shopping, saw alex, picked up a gift, wrapped some gifts.. such a productive day.
anyway, one good conclusion we drew today, from our experience, is that quality time happens every day, and you ought to make time for it. we can't live in the past not in the future. i am usually the one who lives in the future... but with this lovely job i have, i always live in the present... what a blessing.
december 9 of 2011 was a good day.
It has been a full day with lots of errands to run and I even got to say hi to Rob, my former manager...
We talked about life... and with Alex, because she is soft spoken and such a great listener, I always wonder if i talk too much. we talked about good stuff and about heavy stuff... and sometimes that is plain health... to ear our own reflexions on life and not run away screaming. i stopped trying to fix troubles and worry about them. i love listening to my friend and laugh about random silly things. oh, how great it is to have girlfriends!
i went shopping and i didn't die. there is hope for me. i got conrad a gift... a good one. and i got stuff for Luca. 3T... i have been looking for so long for boys clothes.
laundry, cleaning the house, picked up my glasses, food shopping, saw alex, picked up a gift, wrapped some gifts.. such a productive day.
anyway, one good conclusion we drew today, from our experience, is that quality time happens every day, and you ought to make time for it. we can't live in the past not in the future. i am usually the one who lives in the future... but with this lovely job i have, i always live in the present... what a blessing.
december 9 of 2011 was a good day.
Friday, December 2, 2011
blurb
"I always say what I think and I never get in trouble for it"
I never used to be lie that. I would with my words over and over and think of the consequences f my word a thousand times before I said something. But I remember it being just as hard to say something as to never say a word about something that was truly important to me.
So it took years of practice. And I feel the burden of the words for a long time before I speak up... but I am never sorry for what I say... and a good outcome will unfold.
Its a awesome quality to have in business. I never carry burdens for too long. I think this is a gift from my mom. She could never be passive and not say hat needed to be said, but I believe I have refined her gift in me, and I was lucky enough t observe her from outside and learn fast on how I could improve my own self, and make whatever God entrusted me with into a gift not a fault.
I often think of what I would say to my peers, about work and about how they could make the best of it and of themselves. And I rarely speak up. It doesn't seem like that maybe, but the ratio between all the thoughts that cross my mind and the few words that do make it out is discrepant. Maybe and most likely,what never makes it out wasn't meant to be heard to begin with.
Know your resources. be motivated. be enthusiastic, enjoy your work, serve. serve. serve. and do it with a smile. be smart. learn from others. be kind. be appreciative. stay positive and again: enjoy what you do. stop doing what you do if you don't enjoy it anymore. but stop only after you have exhausted all your resources of making your job fun and interesting. reinvent yourself. get a fresh perspective over what you do. stay free. be free. free from resentment and from fear. fear that what you do and what you are is not enough. look people in the eye. and be yourself. a refined yourself. a yourself that you would like to be around too.
I never used to be lie that. I would with my words over and over and think of the consequences f my word a thousand times before I said something. But I remember it being just as hard to say something as to never say a word about something that was truly important to me.
So it took years of practice. And I feel the burden of the words for a long time before I speak up... but I am never sorry for what I say... and a good outcome will unfold.
Its a awesome quality to have in business. I never carry burdens for too long. I think this is a gift from my mom. She could never be passive and not say hat needed to be said, but I believe I have refined her gift in me, and I was lucky enough t observe her from outside and learn fast on how I could improve my own self, and make whatever God entrusted me with into a gift not a fault.
I often think of what I would say to my peers, about work and about how they could make the best of it and of themselves. And I rarely speak up. It doesn't seem like that maybe, but the ratio between all the thoughts that cross my mind and the few words that do make it out is discrepant. Maybe and most likely,what never makes it out wasn't meant to be heard to begin with.
Know your resources. be motivated. be enthusiastic, enjoy your work, serve. serve. serve. and do it with a smile. be smart. learn from others. be kind. be appreciative. stay positive and again: enjoy what you do. stop doing what you do if you don't enjoy it anymore. but stop only after you have exhausted all your resources of making your job fun and interesting. reinvent yourself. get a fresh perspective over what you do. stay free. be free. free from resentment and from fear. fear that what you do and what you are is not enough. look people in the eye. and be yourself. a refined yourself. a yourself that you would like to be around too.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
"I like this"
I said a few days ago that the mind is a powerful thing. Today I discovered how weak it can be sometimes.
We went furniture shopping. And I got overwhelmed and exhausted and had a little panic attack.
Whenever Conrad said he like something overly expensive I would go into the extreme, as is I was trying to balance him, and would disagree. What I was actually saying was that the price is not quite in tune with how much I like that item.
What conrad head is that I dislike everything that he likes. We got into an argument later in the day. And throughout the morning I kept holding my breath, going along trying to do what Conrad enjoys and he didn't even take notice of my efforts.
It was not a fun day.
Later on, he asked me to tell him about my childhood. We didn't do presents well. We were always in need of something and if you had ears to hear, you knew that one needs a new pair of gloves, socks and new white shirt etc. and we were not picky. And we loved everything we got. I really dislike the pressure I feel around Christmas.
Also, in my family, if somebody would only dare and say that they like something. It meant they really really wanted it.
When Conrad says he likes something I hear that he wants to buy it. It's do hard to retrain my interpretation of "I like this" said in a store.
We went furniture shopping. And I got overwhelmed and exhausted and had a little panic attack.
Whenever Conrad said he like something overly expensive I would go into the extreme, as is I was trying to balance him, and would disagree. What I was actually saying was that the price is not quite in tune with how much I like that item.
What conrad head is that I dislike everything that he likes. We got into an argument later in the day. And throughout the morning I kept holding my breath, going along trying to do what Conrad enjoys and he didn't even take notice of my efforts.
It was not a fun day.
Later on, he asked me to tell him about my childhood. We didn't do presents well. We were always in need of something and if you had ears to hear, you knew that one needs a new pair of gloves, socks and new white shirt etc. and we were not picky. And we loved everything we got. I really dislike the pressure I feel around Christmas.
Also, in my family, if somebody would only dare and say that they like something. It meant they really really wanted it.
When Conrad says he likes something I hear that he wants to buy it. It's do hard to retrain my interpretation of "I like this" said in a store.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
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